Making Connections

memoir

You know that feeling when someone you love is probably dying?
And you feel like you should know exactly what to do, exactly what to say,
but you’re paralyzed by the shock, and really,
isn’t that what the doctors are for?
Shouldn’t they know what to do,
how to keep your loved one alive?

But still, you can’t quite sleep at night
for that nagging feeling in the pit of your gut
that tells you you should be doing something,
you should be making it stop,
should at least be saying something apt,
something to keep the demons at bay.

And so what do you do when you see it,
when you see your democracy dying?
You’ve been watching, all the signs,
every one, just like the predictions.
It’s a cancer, this.
And it’s progressing rapidly.
And what do you do?
Aren’t there lawyers, politicians,
noble powerful people somewhere
who know what to do to fix this mess?

And you can’t quite sleep at night
for that nagging feeling in the pit of your gut
that tells you you should be doing something,
you should be making it stop,
should at least be saying something apt,
something to keep the demons at bay.

Gratitude List:
1. The owls are really going at it tonight. I love living within hooting distance of so many of the wise ones.
2. It’s felt like a really long time when I could have a day when I didn’t absolutely have to be doing something school-related. What a relief. I did actually work on something for school today, a sample memoir project for my students to see what I am looking for in their projects.
3. Cheese
4. A good book to read on a cold night
5. Making connections: with people, with memories, with ideas, with synapses.

May we walk in Beauty!

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2 thoughts on “Making Connections

  1. You really captures several things I have been feeling and gone through and am going through with so many others right now. So much deep seated anger and hatred and it’s moving like toppling dominoes. Well said.

    By the way, just so you know, I so look forward to reading your thoughts. It focus my mind on quieter things and shuts down some of the “noise.” And I know what you mean about living near owls. I used to and I miss them. Lovely creatures!

    Have a good day! And blessings to you!

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    • I’m really grateful for your feedback. It’s a big job right now–monitoring that inner rage and despair, trying to figure out what they’re doing to my insides, how to respond, how to hold it all. It really helps to know I am not alone. Yes–“toppling dominoes,” indeed. That’s exactly how it feels.

      Blessings to you!

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